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Eve, Dr. Bach, and the Gift of Botanical Healing  I have been pondering the inspiration and depth of knowledge that Eve gained during her time in the Garden of Eden. She not only partook of the fruits therein but also held the sacred privilege of naming them. I believe she was gifted with the understanding of every plant’s specific intellect and healing power. The plant world was graced with unique species designed for healing on a soul level—a legacy of Eve, the Garden of Eden, and Bach Flower wisdom that remains with us today. The Search for Emotional Relief Plant-based healing has emerged throughout history to meet our deepest personal needs. As a "late bloomer," my own understanding of time and healing has become very important to me. Years ago, my husband and I raised a combined family of 11 children. As you can imagine, with a house full of teenagers, the emotional upheaval was 24/7. Eventually, the emotional stress became so heavy that I became physically ill. I reached a point where I desperately needed support.  I tried conventional medications, but the side effects were more than I was willing to endure. This struggle started me on a journey of prayer and guidance, searching for a different direction. "I needed emotional support... which led me to Bach Flower Remedies: specific flowers in nature that help balance emotions with no side effects." Discovering the Legacy of Dr. Edward Bach My search led me to a fascinating intersection of faith and nature. While researching, I came across the story of Dr. Edward Bach and his plant therapy for healing. I felt a deep connection between the botanical knowledge of Eve, the Garden of Eden, and Bach Flower remedies. Dr. Bach (1886–1936)  was a man of science and deep faith. He was a highly qualified surgeon, bacteriologist, and pathologist. He even developed vaccines for gut health and treated the Queen of England. However, in the 1920s, his research led him away from conventional medicine toward a more holistic path. He discovered that specific flowers in nature could balance specific emotions with no side effects. From Inspiration to England: My Journey as a Practitioner I was so inspired by Dr. Bach’s life that I read every book I could find. When I realized I could study at the Bach Centre in England to become a practitioner, I knew what I had to do. In 2020, I jumped on a plane to England! It was a beautiful, eye-opening experience that taught me things I didn’t even know existed. Through the grace of God and these natural remedies, I found my own healing and a new direction in life. Upon my return, I had a beautiful little cottage, Honeysuckle Cottage , built to serve as my office. Surrounded by nature’s plants, it is a true oasis for healing. Today, as a practitioner, I am honored to help others find their own path to emotional harmony. Debra Rudd — emotionalflowertherapy.com

Chestnut Bud Are we overthinking it? There is a lot of components, which all has their own specific energetic movement. We can’t forget that we have a physical body and a spiritual body, which is our individuality, which makes up our soul. Our spirit is all-knowing; it is more intelligent than our physical body, and they have to work together on some level. One cannot live without the other here on earth to learn the things we were meant to learn. Some people are so emotionally sick, and there are so many things that they could choose from to help with the confusion they carry; nevertheless, they’re looking for help. When we realize that within our own selves, we have the constitution of our spirit that can also help heal emotional stresses.   Bach Flowers are a spiritually energetic plant-based healing tool for emotions gone astray. It is an Organic Therapy for our moods that move us in many emotional directions. 38 emotions to be exact!! Our minds are very complex. If you choose to stop thinking in a specific way that is hurtful for you and you can replace that thought with something more positive, then you will start to feel better. If you feel you need extra help, the Bach Flower remedies can help. We also have a Heavenly Father and angels assisting us, especially in times of great fear, so there are several different ways we can help ourselves through this earthly life with thankfulness for the grace of God, who has put these things on earth in many different ways for each of us to decide what works best for us. My conquest, my story, is probably similar to many others. Several years ago, six to be exact, I was very ill.  I sought knowledge and inspiration through prayer, and I was guided to Bach Flower, which I didn’t even know existed. I was inspired to fly to England to take the Bach Flower schooling courses to understand emotional health and its movement within me. I am today, not perfect, but so much more enlightened in all aspects of who I am, and there are still mountains to climb, there are still hard things to go through, there are also very beautiful spiritual experiences along the way. Connection is what we are all looking for through our healing. Dr. Bach brought value and purpose with the Bach Flower Remedies. He understood the properties and how they worked. Our ancestors before us were inspired to use healing properties from nature, also. Since the beginning of time, maybe they weren’t qualified in their understanding of how it worked, but the understanding came from a higher power to them. Within their soul, they knew it did work, and they knew there was a higher power guiding them just like Dr. Bach learned. One of the things that drew me to him was his love and understanding of God. Fast forward, we are all compelled to follow our hearts and the things that move us spiritually. I don’t believe that has ever changed since the beginning of time, as we are all human. In our day, we have more of an understanding of energies and how they work, and it still works the same throughout us, whether we were born in the beginning of time or now. Life has become more knowledgeable in a sophisticated sort of way to understand outside influences for good or bad, but I personally believe that since the beginning of time, there was wisdom that was learned in the age of time that they were born.   Maybe on some level, they had more of an understanding of things with all the knowledge that they received for healing. We also receive knowledge through healing. What you do with that knowledge is the key.  Are you going to use it for your good, are you going to keep it to yourself, and if you keep it to yourself, is it truly working for you? Sharing, I believe, is what Dr. Edward Bach wanted us to do. Wisdom is meant to share… Debra — emotionalflowertherapy.com

When I am in a space of wonder, the process of taking in thought and feeling of the heart, I tend to get frustrated. I do not want to lose the information that is coming to me; I want to remember it, that process of taking in thought and feeling. But if I stray from the language of the heart, I lose the message I am to learn, always fearful of forgetting and always wanting to write it down so I can remember. So, who are we? Our journey involves uncovering who we are through the lessons life teaches us and the decisions we make, which reveal our true selves. Also, the experiences of others that we observe, sense, or hear can shape us depending on how we embrace and internalize them. Yet, do these experiences really define who we are? When we look deep into our eyes and wonder who we truly are as a child of God, sometimes we forget who we are, or maybe we never really wondered, and then what do we do?  Does it define us through the challenges to refine love along the way?  Do we look in the mirror and only see the wrinkles on our face? Do we feel we need empathy for ourselves for a deeper understanding, no matter what the challenges we face each day? As we look in the mirror a little deeper and recall the strength, love, and desire we have to be the best we can be, well then, we can grow with each new thing we learn. Love creates beauty, tears create hope, and our hearts hold love deeper than we can imagine. We are fully connected to our Heavenly Father, no matter where we are in life. Whether we are soaring with inspiration or we are in the depths of darkness, we are His. We are intelligent. We are who we choose to make of ourselves; this helps us define who we are in all aspects.  Love defines who you are, while always reaching for knowledge.❤️ Debra

While sitting on a log by the ocean, I was pondering life, and a new insight shone upon me. The OCEAN If it could talk, what would it say… I am powerful, loud, and serene; I continually dance. I move in breath with the energy of life within me. I give, and I take. With the rapture of my soul, I glide upon the sand, then pull back into the whole body of water to which I belong. I intrigue people to ponder, to be grounded, and to think deeply. With each new wave that crashes against a rock and soars high into the sky, carrying its white splendor, I give people new breath, wonder, and solitude. The mass of my body is beyond measure. I am "Living Waters." Finding Balance in Life … Still Pondering; I was deep in thought about a family event that was coming up that night. We were getting on a boat to cross the ocean bay—a 45-minute boat ride!! There was a dinner and a show to be seen, and all my family who were with me were going. However, I was not excited about this boat trip, and 99% of me wanted to stay at the hotel and welcome them back when they returned! I had pondered two other times I had stepped forward onto a boat upon the ocean: Deep-Sea fishing, and another time in the San Francisco Bay on a dinner boat cruise. Both times, I felt deathly ill and swore I would never get on another boat in the ocean or the ocean bay again!! Now, it’s been years and years, and I have never stepped foot upon the deck of a boat with ocean water beneath it!! Why? I have been holding that emotional connection or experience for a very, very long time!! I wanted to ensure I would never “ever” forget it and make that mistake again. Every time I re-lived that emotional experience, it was as if I were there. I would start to feel sick and definitely NOT feel in control. Now, here is a keyword for me, “In-Control!!” I cannot be in control when I am not on solid ground. And you can take that however it’s worth it! But, for me, danger lurks beneath dark waters… be it physical or emotional. Thoughts getting louder; The time is getting closer, and I am starting my back-and-forth conversation, “Do I go, or do I not go? Do I go, or do I not go? That is the question I always ask myself when I’m not feeling in control or composed. Creeping in; While I was in deep conversation with myself, another thought timidly entered my space, which completely stopped the conversation I was having with myself!! It ruffled my feathers for a moment, but I decided I would allow it to speak. It could be a new perspective, a new idea, and it was!! The thought was, What if I took the time to ponder the thought that I had written earlier that day about the ocean, which moves differently than the earth? The earth is more grounded, while the ocean is more fluid. Allowing that thought definitely helped me to feel a little more in control, but I always have to be in Control. Just maybe it’s “Time to think outside the box.” So ... I thought for a moment, could I still be grounded with the movement that the ocean has to offer? Could I give new breath with each new wave? Could I intrigue wonder instead of fear? Could I dance with the ocean? What should I do? What if I let myself move with the Ocean? What if I moved effortlessly, swaying side to side, up and down, back and forth like a dance while smelling the Ocean breeze and being one in the moment!! Could I possibly be OK with that? Still pondering; So, I decided to try it one more time. With that thought in mind, I told myself again that if it didn’t work, this would be the last time… Listening; Listening to my intuition, my inspiration, helped me to make a new choice, a choice that gave me freedom to move forward again. I was still afraid, but the fear was not as strong because I allowed myself to see the other side of fear, which made all the difference in the world for me. The Ocean dance charged my lungs. I could breathe deep and then let it out with each new swell that moved up and down and back and forth. I just let myself move with it. It was so peaceful, not fighting against it, that it almost lulled me to sleep. The fear had passed, and solitude had entered my soul. I will always remember this experience when I tried to hold too tightly to something that needed movement differently through my body and emotions. What If? What if is a new part of my movement in life going forward. “Choices in life can sometimes hold you back. It doesn't allow you to find that space of wonder, the inspiration that we need to find the new parts of us, the joyful and playful parts, and the healing parts that are all waiting patiently for their turn. What will it take for you to find the balance in your life?” Debra

Elm I am capable of handling my responsibilities. I have all the support I need. I trust my ability to cope. I can handle my tasks with ease. Fear versus Brave… Fear can be like an overprotective mother!! Watch out!! Don’t do that!! You might get hurt!! Fear is going to let you know everything you should be afraid of!! What you should do and what you shouldn’t do!! Fear has a purpose in our lives, mainly for protection, but after years of experience, it wants to be the star of the show!! It starts to take over until you start to question your own confidence!! Being fearful takes up a lot of negative energy, leaving little room for Brave!! Maybe Fear is feeling overwhelmed, lonely, and tired. Maybe Fear needs some downtime? Sometimes I wonder if Fear would like to trade places with Brave once in a while? And maybe Brave would like to be in the spotlight instead of feeling second best!! I would say that none of our emotions want to be on stage all the time, it could get very overwhelming!! So how can all of our emotions help each other? They need a leader!! The Brain and Heart are our control panel. The Brain is the coach, game on!! Fear, your UP!! The Heart is the compassionate leader. “Fear, are you sure you want to be up again, or would you rather step down, take a break, and let Brave take your place?” Fear lives in and through us at any given moment, sometimes it doesn’t quite feel like fear; sometimes it shows up through the feelings of being overwhelmed and losing confidence, (Elm) Or, it could be Fear on the other end of the spectrum. The fear of terror and panic. (Rock Rose) Thank goodness there is healing of the soul through Bach Flower Remedies. The Bach Flower Remedies can help us change our point of view through learning the lessons that are meant to be learned, no matter how hard and painful it may be. And when it’s over, you can walk barefoot on the grass and be among the flowers in the garden, which brings Hope and peace to the heart. Bach Flower Remedies bring the Sunshine!! Debra emotionalflowertherapy.com

Even though there are family and friends all around me, I have been feeling lonely for a very long time. I have realized what I've done to myself by the boundaries that I have put around me—the things that I will not do, the things that scare me, the things I’m not sure of, the unknown paths I walk—always searching for the better parts of me: the smarter parts, the outgoing parts, and the sharing parts. Although I do share things that I have put effort into, these things that I have learned, are good for me too. My husband wants to travel like we used to, but I feel safer and more comfortable in my own home. I’ve built fences that create boundaries all around me; fear of places I don’t want to go, fear of not feeling safe, fear of flying, fear of being bored, fear of not remembering, fear of becoming lost physically, mentally, and emotionally, etc. Underneath it all, I am STUCK in the surroundings I have created around me—my safe places which have given me peace of heart, peace of mind, and inspiration—the things that give me fresh breath. It sustains me, but not fully. I am in a space of aloneness. I need to build fences with unlocked gates so I can walk through them when I want to. Fear—fear is always built around what is untrue. To overcome what you are afraid of, inquire, “What falsehood is at the root of this feeling?” Still searching… Which path do I want to walk? The tightrope or on the grass and the winding path in the garden? It’s a no-brainer! Of course, I’ll walk in the garden and on the grass! I have realized that I create way too many boundaries to remain safe from the world; it’s my own choices that seem to protect me, but in reality, I’ve also created a cocoon that feels safe but is also restrictive. I feel stuck, which creates a feeling of slowness in my body and mind. How much longer am I going to live this way? Why did I choose to live this way in the first place? I feel that COVID was the precursor to my lack of health moving forward. The cocoon I built around me has helped me feel safe for a while, but I’ve stayed there too long, and now I am trying to find my way out. I ensnared myself for my inner protection, and now it is holding me too tight! There is little movement forward. I feel stuck, which creates isolation. This is not truly me—well, actually, it is me now. It is who I have become, and now I want OUT! I have learned a lot through my years of becoming, and now I am ready for a new chapter in my life—the one that lets me breathe in new light going forward with my courageous, fun self! Lots of laughter and new vibrations through new opportunities. I will give space for myself to grow, step by step—until I am fully there, wherever that is! It’s time to spread my wings and fly! A butterfly's metamorphosis holds up a mirror to our own life stories of change, as it reflects the journey of breaking free from the doubts that hold us back and embracing the growth that comes with transformation. Just as the caterpillar sheds its old skin and emerges from the cocoon, we too must let go of suffocating beliefs, fears, or past experiences that no longer serve us. This process of breaking free can be difficult and uncomfortable, but it's through these challenges that we begin to grow, evolve, and discover our true potential! Like a butterfly taking flight, we eventually rise above our past struggles, gaining the strength, resilience, and freedom to live to the fullest extent. The butterfly's journey mirrors our own: a path of self-discovery, transformation, and the courage to become who we are truly meant to be! Debra

M. Catherine Thomas, quoted in her book Light in the Wilderness, "It’s the work we put into our souls to understand all things as much as we can; it brings an awakened awareness and yielding of our hearts to God. It can take the weight out of emotionally heavy things, which seems to control everything physical, but not spiritual. Everything we thought we needed from other sources, we can find in Jesus Christ, and that turning our will over to him becomes the greatest relief, and is beautiful and full of goodness, and puts us in a new harmony." I feel as I read and ponder the writings of those who have passed, with the leaving behind of their own divine knowledge, things that they have learned, it is slow and hard for me to understand the volume of the task I have to understand in my soul, and the principles of my soul, and what it has learned step-by-step. I get impatient sometimes because learning ' line upon line' is slow, and I truly want to understand them now.  I feel that I have to live it to learn it—t o feel it within me with all aspects of who I am: physically, spiritually, and emotionally, which takes time. As I am getting older myself, sometimes I feel that time is running out. I need to remember that I have an eternity to learn it.  But I crave to learn the things that fill my soul with love and joy and their opposites, for I cannot have one without the other while in my earthly body.    Debra "In my writing, I shared how I sometimes get impatient with the slow, ‘line upon line’ nature of spiritual growth. In the world of Bach Flower remedies , the essence of Impatiens is the beautiful counterweight to this internal rush. Just as I crave to understand the depths of my soul now, Impatiens helps soften that urgency. It allows us to yield our hearts to God’s timing rather than our own, transforming our restless frustration into a ‘new harmony’ where we can finally breathe and simply be in the process."

Experiences in our lives help us to grow mightily. Emotional changes are a big part of those challenges. Negative self-talk we tell ourselves distorts our views of ourselves. We each have our unique movement through life. While on my life's journey of trying to understand my emotional wellness, I came across Dr. Edward Bach's article "Heal Thyself." It taught me many things, including "Bach Flower Remedies," which can help with emotional anxiety. I knew, without a doubt, that I wanted to learn and understand more about his work and methods, and this was the beginning of my Bach Flower journey. I studied at the Bach Center in England to become a Practitioner of Bach Flower Therapy. My eyes were open to the emotional feelings and awareness of energetic, vibrational healing. I discovered that our mind, body, and spirit all need to be in balance with each other to be able to perform and function properly. This became instrumental in helping me overcome Graves' disease. (an autoimmune disease of the thyroid.) Seeing the changes Bach Flower Remedies made in my life and others', I decided I wanted to share them. The peace, joy, happiness, and contentment it brought to me were life-changing. We each have our own destiny, unique to us. Some discover and understand it earlier in life than others. It can come in many different shapes and sizes. My healing came later in life and helped me to understand the things I wish I had learned when I was younger. At times, I would feel angry with myself for not discovering it sooner. I needed a different lens to look through, a different perspective. One that would help me discover and understand the great joy and happiness that was right in front of me. In time, I realized it was not just about trying to find greater joy and happiness. It had always been about adding to the love and joy I already had with my family, friends, and myself. Everything in life is about timing, which we are not in control of. Life requires you to have more patience, a stronger push to keep moving forward, and an understanding that time is not the enemy. You can't force healing. Balance, Love, Charity, Grace, and Time, are all part of healing the inner heart and soul. I continued to expand my knowledge and education through the Emotional Code Technique, Chakras, IFS ( Internal Family Systems), and Spiritual healing. Learning, sharing, and loving more compassionately have taught me how to help others through their emotional healing journey. I have been through many things in my life. I am a wife, a mother, a grandmother, and now a great-grandmother. There will always be ups and downs, hills to climb, and cliffs to fall over. A time to heal, a time to get back up and keep moving forward. Life for me has brought a wider understanding of physical, spiritual, and emotional movement which can help me to see their connection and how they can work together for my good. It gives me Hope to see the purpose of life in the beauty of all creation. The gift of humanity who has the opportunity to see all things through the eyes of Love. There is much all around us in our world that can bring us joy. The herbs of the fields, animals, babbling brook, trees, beautiful mountains, and the rolling hills of meadow flowers. Each living within their sphere and creating their destiny, to learn to share Truth and Love… Share your story… Dr. Edward Bach's cottage where he spent the last days of his life.

In the beautiful English countryside of 1838, inspiration seemed to flow from the heavens, awaiting those men and women willing to receive it. Edward Bach was one of those young spiritual individuals, taught by his mother and grandmother, waiting to receive it. Beautiful Meadow Fields Edward Bach was a young boy full of imagination who loved living in the countryside. He felt its energy, loved nature, and everything about it. He often watched his mother and grandmother working in the meadow fields and joined them often, as they picked and gathered herbs from their usual growing spots. He would bring them home and watch as they prepared the herbs, through the process of drying, boiling, or mashing. No matter the method, they were making healing tonics, just as their mothers and grandmothers had done before them. It was their tradition to   gather herbs from the fields that God had provided for healing. WE NEED TO BLOOM WHERE WE ARE PLANTED… Edward, I believe, was fascinated with watching his mother and grandmother over and over again, trailing behind them, as he helped, observed, and learned while hunting for the herbs himself. He always had a premonition that he would be a doctor one day who would help heal and make people better. As he grew into his teens and finished school, his dream of being a doctor was still very strong. He never told his parents about it because he knew they couldn’t afford to send him to medical school. So he ended up going to work in the factories. To be specific, the brass factory in London with his father. It was very arduous work; it was dark, it was gloomy and cold, it was muggy, dirty work. He saw many depressed people working there and probably became a little depressed himself. After three years of saving his money from working in the brass factory, he finally told his parents that he wanted to become a doctor. They gave him their blessing, so he took the money he had, went back to London, and started school. He became the doctor he was so inspired to be, even as a child. He worked hard, and he loved every minute of it. He not only became a family physician, but he also became a Botanist. He loved understanding and working within and figuring out the Scientific ways of the plant world… Dr. Edward Bach not only earned a degree in Botany but also became a Bacteriologist. He made and produced vaccines for hospitals in London and other hospitals nearby. One of the vaccines he made for gut health earned him a Nobel Prize. Later in his practice, he went on to learn and study more with Dr. Hanneman, the co-founder of Homeopathy. Dr. Bach, for many years, had a vast London Harley Medical Practice. He was a spiritual and intuitive man who realized that physical health is seen and felt . Throughout his studies and career, he continued to dive deeper into the "emotional health mind." He soon discovered 38 different "Emotional Flower Therapies" that helped heal "vibrational" emotions within us. This short story of his life is what got him to where he wanted to be. But one of the biggest things that moved him was his knowledge of God, his knowledge of inspiration, and his journey of going through the things that he learned, which in turn put him in a pivotal place in time and space for others to learn from. His inspirational work has been documented and is invaluable to those moving forward with his work all around the world. GOD IS IN THE DETAILS OF OUR LIVES… Now today one hundred and 30 years forward, Bach Flower Remedies are still being used for emotional healing around the world. It is being used as a Vibrational, Energetic Healing, which helps to bridge the disconnect between spirit and body… Now my story for me is fascinating also. I grew up in a loving home, as Edward Bach did. I believe in God and Jesus Christ as he did. I have had disappointments along the way as he did. I love nature and flowers as he did. (I don’t believe that when it is our time to leave our earthly existence, we leave behind the things that we loved, we bring them with us through our memories!!) When I was 18, I married a man who wanted to go to Chiropractic college, which was a whole new thought process and experience for me. Chiropractors were still trying to make their way, and there were a lot of people in the medical field who did not understand them and tried hard to abolish them. We had moved to Portland, Oregon, so that he could go to school. I was young and impressionable about the things that he was learning, it was a different way than the way I understood medicine to be and how it worked… I learned about energies, I learned a little bit about Bach Flower's holistic vibrational healing remedies through an experience I had. I had some emotional stress that needed help, and I didn’t know how to go about it. I was given a Bach Flower tincture, a specific Bach Flower Remedy for what I was going through, and I was amazed at how much it did help me with that particular problem. As my husband finished school and we came back to Utah to set up his practice, I decided to go to school to become a midwife. Now, back then, midwives were not well accepted by the medical field either. Midwives were birthing babies at home; they were not allowed in hospitals yet. After I graduated, I decided that the threat of losing a mother or baby on my watch was not something I wanted to be a part of. I learned a lot, but I decided to continue just being a mother to five daughters… WITH HOPE THERE IS ANOTHER CHAPTER TO OUR LIVES… Now, during these years of growing a family and helping to start a practice for my husband, there were a lot of ups and downs, there were a lot of emotions, including depression, love, joy, insecurities, feeling isolated, and becoming frustrated. Because my husband wasn’t home much, I felt the heaviness of my situation, and emotionally, I just went down, down, down. I loved my girls with all my heart, but I struggled with myself and didn’t know how to take care of those struggles, so our marriage ended in divorce, and nothing changed except that I moved out, and we shared the love in raising our beautiful daughters back and forth. I was divorced for six years. After six years, I met Alan. At that time, I didn't know he would play a big part in allowing me to spread my wings and fly. The hard part of this union was that I had five daughters and he had three daughters and two sons, which made 10 children altogether!! Now, going back in time, when I was a junior in high school. I started to have the same dream for two weeks every night. I had an impression that I was going to adopt a baby girl, and I think it took two weeks for it to solidify in my conscience that this was meant to be. Well, in my first marriage, we had five daughters, and adopting a baby girl just wasn’t going to happen... Now coming forward again to my 2nd marriage with 10 children. As Alan and I were dating, and before we were married, we had many conversations about some of the difficulties of blending our families. I remember sitting on a bench one day, and I said to him, “I have something to tell you.” I told him of the dream that I had had over and over about adopting a little girl and how much it meant to me, and to my surprise, he seemed to know that my convictions of this dream were coming from heaven above, and it would happen someday… MAKE ROOM FOR GOD, AND HE WILL FILL YOUR LIFE FOR GOOD IN SO MANY WAYS YOU WOULD HAVE NEVER IMAGINED… Me and My Youngest Daughter We were married for five years before deciding to pursue the adoption of a baby girl. We went through several opportunities, but we knew it was not the daughter that we were to adopt. Finally, after much prayer and fasting, and when everything was correct and in place with God's timing, it happened easily and quickly… This daughter has been a great joy in our lives; she cemented our family, our two separate families. There were also challenges that we had to go through with her as she grew older. With her tender heart and love for us as her parents, she wanted to know about her adoption. Through tears of frustration, insecurities, and lack of understanding in her mind, we, together, went through many hurdles with Ashley, with our loving Heavenly Father at the helm. We together have experienced great growth from those experiences mightily… She is now 21. (2021) Has depression and social anxiety. She is still living at home and walking through her journey with love and support from me, her father, and her brothers and sisters. I know she will make it. Each of us has our journey to go through… WHEN THE STUDENT IS READY, THE TEACHER WILL APPEAR… Now, at this time in my life, I have been searching and searching for help to understand the emotional wellness of our daughter, Ashley. Something that would help support her naturally. I also was not feeling well and discovered that I had Graves' disease, which is an autoimmune disease of the thyroid. I prayed mightily for inspiration and answers, not only for myself but for Ashley. Through the grace of God, I was led to read two very important writings by Dr. Edward Bach. “Heal Thy Self” and Free Thy Self. I read the books through, not putting them down once, and I knew without a doubt that it was something I was to learn and understand. I read everything about Bach Flower Remedies and Dr. Edward Bach. I cried tears while reading it, and I knew I must learn MORE!! IT CHALLENGED AND CHANGED MY LIFE FOR GOOD!! Being afraid of flying on airplanes, I still got on one. I flew to England to take the courses to become a Practitioner of Bach Flower therapy, and boy, did it open up my eyes and my feelings and awareness of energetic vibrational healing!!! From there, I also learned about Chakras. I also learned the Emotion Code and how it works with healing emotions, energetically. I went to school to become a massage therapist, and I have also studied IFS, Internal Family Systems Therapy… I had now learned several different ways of healing from the way I had been brought up, knowing. It was a very important turning point in my life. I was now on my journey of healing my Graves’ disease of the thyroid, which is caused by extreme emotional distress. Through my journey and the shared knowledge of others, which I have studied, and the love and grace of my Heavenly Father, I have been able to heal myself. My endocrinologist shakes his head every time he sees my new blood work and how completely balanced it is!!! I am continually learning about balance in life, and it doesn’t stop here. I am still searching, I’m still learning, I’m still sharing, and I’m still loving compassionately others who need this in their life. I am still working with our daughter, and I know that with my help, she will be able to get through this and be able to continue to see the sweet, amazing person she is and be able to live the destiny that she has to live. But now, she is experiencing life that will help her to move forward. Fast forward one year, and Ashley has learned a lot about herself and has moved forward with her life. She has found joy within herself and now is sharing it with her new husband, Mark. They were married in September 2022, and now live in Austin, Texas!! SELF-DOUBT IS A VERY GOOD SEEDBED FOR PROGRESS, AND HUMILITY IS THE PERFECT FERTILIZER… I am now 68 years old. I have been through a lot in my life with emotions moving through me. Raising and combining 11 children with my husband and all their emotions!! I’ve learned a lot about Humility through Emotional Movement. I had never really understood destiny and how very present I needed to be to fulfill it in the way that I was meant to live it in my life and share it with others… As I have learned step by step, I now know that part of my destiny is being a mother and stepmother to 11 children, 9 girls, and 2 boys. Also a grandmother of 34 grandchildren and 1 great-grandmother so far!! I honor them all, while they are continuing to learn to walk their journeys… Because of my life lessons, I have had to learn step by step, and I am in a place to help them when they’re ready to receive. I understand balance in life. I have more understanding of my new movement through life as a spiritual, emotional, and physical daughter, mother, wife, grandmother, and a Bach Flower Practitioner. I have learned that force is not the way to the soul's path to Healing, but that balancing Love, Charity, Grace, and Timing, God's timing is the most important part of Healing. There can be no Healing (I have learned) without finding the love of Christ, knowing him, and having him in my heart, soul, and mind always. Of course, there are still going to be ups and downs. There are going to be hills to climb. There are going to be cliffs that we fall over. There are going to be times for healing and times for getting up and starting over… It serves us to listen for the answers. It will manifest itself in many ways. It will guide our life to find the Joy in it… FEAR CAN KEEP US TETHERED, TERROR CAN TIP OUR WINGS, BUT TRUST EASES PAIN, HOPE CAN LIGHTEN THE SKY, LOVE MAKES US COURAGEOUS… Just sharing our stories helps others to be strong enough to get up and try again… Christ is the Master Healer. Just knowing, in your darkest moments, that he is always there, even if you can’t feel him. There is a time for us to learn and keep moving forward in the dark spaces of our lives… It helps our testimonies of spiritual things and physical things to become stronger… The awareness of what your destiny is can come at different times in life; some get it early, as Dr. Edward Bach did, and he went through his whole life working that destiny… Understanding and sharing my destiny has come in many shapes and sizes, but my personal healing destiny has come later in life for me… Dr. Edward Bach has helped me understand many things that I wish I had learned earlier in life. And sometimes it makes me mad at myself for not listening to my intuitions, that still small voice, and finding it earlier, but I have to remember that everything about life is timing. We must learn before we can receive the answer. Life experiences have to come together that are not in my control, as with the adoption of our daughter. It took many years after my dreams, so I’m learning patience… I am still moving forward in my life, and for now, I am feeling the healing of my soul in many ways. I love sharing it, and love talking about it… I love seeing the change in me and in other people who are using their Inspiration in their lives for good. It will bring Joy, Peace, and Contentment to all who are reaching to find it... In times of sorrow, it has brought a closer connection within me, a wider understanding of things of the spirit and also physical things of the mind and body, and how they all connect… I see and understand more of the things that we are all connected to in the world. I have a greater understanding of others who also have their paths to walk, their desires, and their feelings of understanding along the way. Their purpose… I also love the beauties of the world, herbs of the fields, trees, animals, babbling streams, beautiful mountains, and rolling hills of sand as far as you can see. They each have their unique destiny for their purpose to share with us as human beings… Let us continue to try to be our best within ourselves to find Joy in and around us in a world of darkness. The darkness around us is not our enemy. Challenges create change, and change promotes growth, and growth helps us to push through until we can see and feel the light around and within us. Make an effort to find the beacon of light within you. Sometimes even the smallest of gestures from someone else can help us to move to do amazing things. One step at a time is all it takes to find JOY in the moments that create the rhythms of life, your time here on earth… Debra Rudd

This research on “Bach Flowers and the Immune System” can be a little overwhelming for some of you who are reading it for the first time! So just take a deep breath and try to read between the lines… You will get out of it what you need to learn right now, and more understanding will come later. Remember that “Life is a journey, not a destination” Bach Flowers and the Immune System; Researchers in immunology have shown that negative feelings and stress weaken our immune response. The number of killer cells in the blood that destroy viruses and bacteria, for example, is significantly reduced in people who are depressed or resigned. Thus it’s more difficult for these people to cope with illness-causing agents. If the negative feelings are harmonized, however, the immune system will be strengthened and can deal more effectively with incoming pathogens. From this point of view, Bach Flower Therapy can be seen as a new and effective form of psychological preventive health care. From the viewpoint of natural healing, Bach Flower Therapy can be seen as a cleansing and re-tuning therapy. Just as the metabolic waste products and leftovers from bad nutrition weigh on the physical body and can cause disease, so can psychological “waste” psycho-toxins hinder our physiological metabolism and the adequate simulation of mental and emotional impressions and responses. These psycho-toxins are washed away or transformed through the consumption of Bach Flowers. Health in an ideal state, is the harmonious vibrational balance within and between all layers of the aura and the spirit. The disease is, according to its interpretation, disharmony or the distortion of frequencies within or between different levels of the aura and the spirit. The information pattern of the distortion shows itself in the etheric level - which obeys different laws of time in the physical body weeks, months, or even years before it is manifested in the body. The deeper reasons for most diseases can be detected within the emotional and mental levels of the aura as well, where subconscious and perceived reactions to feelings and thoughts are either blocked or stimulated. This leads to distortions in the energy frequencies and hence to negative states such as fear, hate, jealousy, anger, impatience, and sadness. These act through the etheric level, first on the nervous system of the physical body and later in the organs. Bach says that the Flower Essences Open our channels to the messages of our higher self or spirit and that they act in all layers of the aura. While Bach Flowers are active as “divine impulses” reach all levels of vibration, other drugs and therapies affect only certain levels, mainly in the physical body. The aura encompasses all of the personality levels of consciousness and experience. On the trans-personal level, the higher self or “Spirit” forms the bridge between the personality and the soul. The soul's personality is made up of the union between the spirit and body. The Flowers that Bach used are “plants of higher order.” Each of them embodies a certain potential for the Soul that is expressed through its particular vibration. Each of these “Floral” Vibrational patterns corresponds to a matching Soul frequency within the human energy field. The human soul carries in principal all of Bach’s 38 flowers in the form of virtues, the archetypal repertoire of harmonic behavior patterns, ( Things that you have learned from Prominent figures in your life like mothers, fathers, friends, teachers, etc. that have helped you to understand earthly and heavenly things that make up who you are, as you choose your own Yen and Yang. Then you begin to decide where you fit in this life) As you grow and mature some of those things will change through new choices you make. The Bach Flowers are balanced differently in each of us. If for a potential such as self-confidence, there is a misunderstanding between the spirit and the body, (soul.) Intentions and the understanding of the personality, the frequency of the potential will be distorted and will become evident as a negative behavior pattern in the personality presenting, for example as a lack of trust in our abilities. The frequency of the Flower Essence “Larch ” corresponds to the potential that has to do with self-esteem. Taking Larch sends harmonizing impulses into the specific area of the human energy field that is distorting this potential and Helps to hold the positive emotion for a while and helps to keep it in a safe place for you. When taking Larch over time, it re-harmonizes and reestablishes the positive behavior pattern; lack of confidence transforms into self-esteem, harmonizing the self “chatter” into self-talk that is working together for you. In other words, the Bach Flower acts as a catalyst , recognizing the specific, blocked contact between the soul and the personality. The soul can be heard again by the personality. Where there are those harmonies and rigidity, Life flows once again. Or as Bach put it, “A person that wasn’t quite himself anymore is now restored to be fully himself.” ( Etheric) The etheric body, the ether-body, is the first or lowest layer in the human energy field or aura. It is in immediate contact with the physical body, to sustain it and connect it with higher bodies of energy. Bach Flowers help to connect the bridge between the spirit and body. Dr. Edward Bach

Shifting Movement of Emotions Through Crying. (Looking for answers.) Safe Place. (Where is your safe place?) Find a Place with No Interruptions. This process works well for negative emotions while leaving space for personal shifting and healing moments. Try not to stifle your feelings. Let yourself cry, and let it feel natural. Go with it, however it comes. Sometimes, more than one emotion will come up and seem a little chaotic. Choose the one you feel needs your time the most for now, letting the other emotions know they will not be left behind. Working one-on-one emotionally can help each layer fade away more quickly. When you have chosen the emotion that needs you the most, be there for a moment with it. When it feels right, look a little deeper. Does the emotion feel guarded? If the answer is yes, ask your body what it is guarding and what you need to understand so you (your higher self, your spirit) can help your body through the healing process. Your body and mind want to trust you, and they want to feel safe and in a safe place. Your body, mind, and spirit are "Who" you are, and you are all experiencing life together. Working together can bring peace to your soul through the healing grace of Jesus Christ, and you will receive knowledge for yourself and sometimes others. In this process, you will be able to release the layering effect. As the emotions through your feelings rise, go with it; no judgment, don't force it. It could be a small feeling that does not feel safe enough for the new process yet, or it can be an emotion that wants to be guttural, heavy and very loud, let it happen, and don't hold it back. It is the body's way of talking out loud and being able to release what it has been holding for so long. Give yourself time to process. When you are in the space of wonder write your experience down, you will be living in that raw moment because you are reliving it at the age you were when it happened. Your body is talking to you. You need to hear the things it has to tell you with your heart so your body can release that emotion. (All feelings live in the heart.) It could also be an answer, a wonderful angelic feeling of something powerful you need to feel to understand your future choices. It is essential to listen with your heart. Journal Your Answers Journal your answers in sequence for each Emotional Tear-Safe Place Moment. It will begin to make sense as layers of emotions fade, making room for your new uplifting and personal moments. It's your Journey. How do you want to live it? Debra Rudd

(Free thy self) Release your burdens… Repentance is not a bad word; it is not a word that holds you down, and it’s not a word that brings self-pity, anger, sadness, heaviness, and pain to the soul. It is not a word that hides your actions and makes you feel used or guilty. It is not a word that makes you feel that you were or are a bad person. It is not a word that gives you great anxiety, depression, uncertainty, loneliness, and fear. It’s not a word you should run away from. Repentance IS a word that gives you strength, gives you freedom, and lets you breathe. The word repentance doesn’t hold you back or make you feel as if you are stuck. Repentance is a word that moves you forward. Repentance is a word we should all love because it’s a gift from our Father above. It’s a gift of love; it’s a gift of physical and spiritual correction when we’re off the path of our divine nature. It was a gift given to help us, not to hinder us. He KNEW what we all were up against during our learning process of spirit and body here on earth. Repentance is not a word that pulls us away from our Heavenly Father and from our brother Jesus Christ. It is not a word that stains us but gives us Power—the power to move those thoughts and feelings of anxiety, guilt, bondage, fear, anger, and loneliness away from our heavy hearts and minds. Repentance is a word that doesn’t make you feel stuck, feeling there is no way out of your situation. Repentance is a word for “Healing”. The choices that are made sometimes are not working for you. You took a wrong turn off your pre-Destin path. The path you chose to take before you were born on this earth. You were there In our heavenly home. We who are born on this earth were all there and we all chose to love cherish and help one another. Help to lift one another instead of making judgments toward each other and turning our backs because someone made a mistake. (A wrong turn so to say. ) There is a difference between judgment and understanding of a soul's sorrows. ( a soul is the connection of your body and spirit) Sometimes because of our insecurities, we make choices to have a different road trip than the one we had planned for ourselves before this earth life. On these road trips, there are a lot of distractions and experiences that look fun to have, like bright lights, loud laughter, and different food for our appetites, that seem to quench our thirst. Some signs say come and join us and have some fun! It looks enticing and maybe you are tired of the Mundane boring drive of life we seem to tell ourselves we are in. This is the way the other 1/3 of our brothers and sisters can bring us down to their level of misery and unhappiness because of their Jealousies, and Despair of where they are and you are not. They did not choose to follow Jesus' plan. Thus far You made the better choice. But when the enticement gets too strong and the heavy emotional stresses seem to tie you down and throw at you emptiness and loneliness it becomes easier, so to say, to align yourself with people that have made different choices. Taken different paths, and different road trips. Not the best choices. Because their very own heavy Emotional burdens that they too bear, and carry within them, give them a feeling of unworthiness. It can pull them to and fro one way rather than another if they don’t stay connected through their lifeline. Which is through prayer, united with our Heavenly Father Who knows our hearts, minds, and spirits. He not only gave us free agency to choose for ourselves the path we walk, but he gave us, the worth of the soul. The worth that God has given each one of us is non-negotiable it is who you are as his spirit child. It is your divine nature. This God-given worth moves us forward when we make mistakes, Which in turn helps us to find wisdom, which helps us to become wiser in the choices we make. The negative, self-worth talk you tell yourself is not the Worth God gave you, and still gives you. Through repentance, we can see our choices from a different perspective, and that is the very moment that we learn and grow closer to our Divine nature. Earth life is Satan‘s domain, we knew he would be here, but I think we felt we would be stronger in our passion for our God-given right, to bring to pass the experiences, we would have to share one with another and to show our love to our Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ, and their gift to us of the plan of salvation for all. The eternal plan that we as individuals felt was right. We looked forward to having and making our own choices for our divine path, for our learning, our own experiences, and the gaining of knowledge of things on earth. We had passion, we had good strong beliefs, we had the conviction that we could do it and wanted to do it, and so we are here. We are here right now still learning step-by-step making mistakes along the way. There are experiences put in our paths that will pull us away from the path we had paved for ourselves before we were born on earth. The things we are here to do and accomplish. Some of these distractions look bright and fun, they look like new friends that are doing something interesting and different, and that calls to you. They are people who don’t give you good advice, sometimes they lie and cheat and will try to persuade you so they can pull you down to their level of experience. They, like all of us from time to time, feel guilt and despair because we are making choices that are not our eternal truths for ourselves. They have forgotten who they are, or have never been taught that they are children of God. When we walk that path of despair, it is harder to remember, how to find our way back to who we truly are. Repentance is a beacon of light. It is a spotlight of Truth, Forgiveness, Love, and Compassion. It helps you with never-ending green arrows showing you the way back to the road you must travel. It will renew you and give you Purpose, Peace, Joy, and Happiness. Satan and his minions are the ones that pull you down, the ones that are going to lead you on a path that you know in your heart is not the path for you. They are the ones who are going to tell you lies, that repentance is a dirty word that you will never get past the insecurities and anxieties that you hold inside you because of something you did willingly or unwillingly. We all have choices in this life. Choices are sometimes not easy and sometimes they are dependent upon the direction you choose to go. Depending upon your understanding of the gift of repentance. Depending upon if you can use it as a road sign, as a help, as a way station, or as a place to stop and ponder. We are here to learn to redirect our thoughts and feelings. We are here to learn to pray for guidance and safety along the paths that we walk alone or together. Pray boldly, and ask for understanding of your life lessons, knowing that moving forward in your life requires effort. Hold on to the Iron Rod in Lehi’s dream. His dream was guidance from our loving Heavenly Father, Not only for Lehi’s family but for all of us to read and learn about the Plan of salvation, the directions that we should align ourselves with so that if we stray we are not completely disconnected from our Father above. The large and spacious building in Lehi‘s dream is all around us, it is in the world. If you choose to enter Into the despondency and despair of that great and spacious building, it can bring fear, loneliness, uncertainty, influence, and lack of trust in yourself and God. But because of the plan of salvation and your free agency to make choices in your life, you can also choose to walk out of the large and spacious building of darkness into the light and find Love, Joy, and mercy for yourself. We must never forget that walking side-by-side in all things for our good is our loving brother Jesus Christ who has already borne our sins and understands us on a very personal level. He is always there to help, so we can find our way back home. Jesus‘s sacrifice, satisfied the demands of justice, allowing God to mercifully forgive us through repentance… Alma 12:34 Therefore, whosoever repenteth and hardeneth not his heart, he shall have Clam and “Mercy” through mine Only Begotten Son, unto a remission of his sins; and these shall enter into my rest… After repentance don’t look back, because your life is ahead of you… It is your choice, it has always been your choice. Love yourself and let your light so shine… Debra Rudd I am a member of the church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints *footnote; Life can be like a massive freeway system, you have a plan of a destination of where you want to go or end up as you enter the freeway entrance. There are a lot of exits, roundabouts, and distractions while you are on your way. If you don’t pay attention, you will miss the exits you need, to get to the destination you want to find. It can get very confusing and disruptive to your plan. Let’s say before you left on your trip you asked Siri to help. She knows where all roads lead and can get you where you want to go even though you still have to drive through the freeway chaos to get yourself there. Your Heavenly Father is likened to Siri He knows the way and if you trust in him and keep him in your heart he will guide you through your life. He will help get you on and off the freeways of your life and arrive at your destination… He always has your back… but you won’t hear him if you don’t listen for his Direction…